Paradise...18/09/05

I know there's peace & better place somewhere up in the skie$,
in time I will be there and no more tears will fall from my eyes.
Everyday I am coming closer to where the sun will forever shine,
no more grey clouds, rain & u will heal this broken heart of mine.
I don't know what I've done to be rewarded to enter your home,
yet you still watch over me every time I do wrong & when I'm alone.
I know you try to support & help me but some how I cant pull through,
I wonder if u forgive me so I apologise 4 the bad thingz I continue to do.
I feel evil is following me & is making me produce such unforgivable deeds,
I hope u understand that I long 2 change & give my religion what it needs.
I act stupid at times and wish I could turn back the hands of time,
U help them & if you protect their precious hearts could u please fix mine?
When I was fighting to become myself I knew I would have given in,
and so some how they took over me but deep inside you let ME win..

julia/layla